Book Blab: Summer Reading: Siddhartha: Quote Outline

Part One

"to everyone he was a pleasure...did not delight himself...no pleasure to himself." (6) He looks down on himself. He is still searching for himself.

He is searching for his purpose and what fulfills him. Trying to find his connection to his spirituality. Searching for his spiritual fulfillment

"did not atman dwell inside him, did not the primal source flow within his own heart? it had to be found, the primal source of the individual I, one had to possess it oneself? Everytrhing else was searching, sidestepping, going astray...His thirst such his suffering." (8)

Everything but that spiritual pursuit was meaningless, nothing else would satisfy him.

"I do not wish to know how to walk on water...may old Shramanas content themselves with such wiles!"

He is not satisfied with the level of fulfillment that the shramana's have reached.

"It has come to you out of your own seeking, on your own path, through thinking, through meditation, through knowledge, through enlightenment." (21)

He respects the buddah because he is buddah for christ sake. He knows that he is not a follower of buddah, but he respects that buddah has reached personal enlightenment. But he (siddhartha ) knows that if it isn't his own way/path he won't be satisfied.

"...the world was transformed, and his heart was spellbound."
"So lovely, so delightful to go through the world this way, so like a child, awake, open to what is near, without distrust." (39)

He is seeing the beauty in everything, he is seeing everything in a positive light. He is taking in the sheer beauty of nature. He has awakened with a child-like view on life.

"Suddenly awakening from this dream, he felt himself surrounded by deep melancholy. Worthless, so it seemed to him, the conduct of his life had been worthless and senseless up to that point...Alone he stood and empty, like a shipwreck on the shore." (66)
"he had taken pains and longed to become an ordinary human like all these many others, like these children, and in the process his life had become far more miserable and poorer than theirs, for neither their aims nor their troubles were this..." (67)

After his revelation he has new standards for himself, he is going in a repetative cycle

Gotten so in tune with materialistic life he loses of his goals. He ignored his inner voice.
It's his innermost voice that is the thing that stays true to "his path".
He is never satisfied with his life.

"In this hour Siddhartha ceased struggling with his fate, ceased suffering. On his face blossomed the serenity of knowledge, which no will opposes any longer..."